This week in meetings I am talking to my members about glowing…..Weight Watchers Glowments, those moments when you do something you are so proud of that you cannot help but glow. I love this! And though I lead meetings now, I am still a member, continuing to learn and grow on this journey.
This week has been another one of those moments when I go….ahhhh….YES….THAT is what I need to hear and do.
Taking care of me…..putting me first…….something that is hard to do in the best of times and even harder in the midst of chaos, heartbreak and fear.
The past couple of months have been difficult and the past few weeks found me falling back on old habits to comfort me….I even had a Peanut Butter day….just one day. What I learned is that the old habits don’t get rid of the fear or the pain. Peanut butter does not heal what is hurting my heart and soul, instead it gives me heartburn.
I am finding my footing, finally, this week. I am beginning to find a way to take care of me, and find some happy moments, all while my heart cries. I am finding that the new habits I formed while losing my weight and the lifestyle I have developed is now more comforting to me than the old ways.
And this week I am finding some moments…those glowments that I encourage my members to find…the positives when negatives are all that can be seen and felt. And I am proud of me!
Slowly I am getting back to my life….. taking back my life. And that starts by taking care of me…..eating healthy, exercising (yes, I need to get to my training for that half-marathon) and doing things that I enjoy doing.
A movie last weekend, a book to read, and dancing in the living room…all ways I have started to be kind to myself.
And Last night, an evening with my husband at the Bruce Munro Sonoran Light Exhibit was just that moment or glowment. The lights glowed, changing colors, drawing me in. And I was glowing!
Taking care of me does not take away the pain and fear, but it does help me to grow and glow!