A few weeks ago I came across this fitness journal and purchased it, thinking that it if I used it to journal my activity it just might help me in my training for my half-marathon. And it has some GREAT quotes to inspire even this inactive, non-lover of sweaty exercise.
I have used the journal a few times, recording my walks and my short stints at running. And I have bookmarked the quotes that have touched my soul.
Earlier this week, my husband and I had decided that we would do a LONG walk this morning….and when this morning arrived, I did NOT want to get up and walk. I wanted to stay in bed longer. But I forced myself to get up and off we went.
I was stiff and my lower back was bothering me, but I walked. As we approached our planned turnaround point, my husband asked me how my back was doing. And when I said that it actually felt better, he asked if I wanted to go ahead and go a little further before we turned around….uh, no! I planned what point I would turn around and I didn’t want to stray from that plan, into the unknown………
And then…….we went further.
I am so glad we did. It was a little farther, a little more time with my husband and a little more time outside on a beautiful morning before the heat set in.
When we got home, I pulled out my fitness journal to write down my steps, time and mileage and then I saw the quote for today—
Yes! Life DOES begin at the end of my comfort zone!
Changing course, going farther, doing something different……all outside my comfort zone. My comfort zone is my safe place…it is the known quantity.
I have talked a bit these past few weeks in meetings about getting outside our comfort zone in order to make change happen. When what we are doing is not getting us the results we are seeking, instead keeping us stuck where we are, then we need to step outside that comfort zone, try something different, DO something different and then we will see the change. We are creatures of habit….at least I am. And change has been a difficult thing for me because, for my younger self, change often meant sadness, stress, and that something awful was happening.
I don’t like change. I like staying in that place where I feel safe and have a safety net….the place that is familiar, even in its dysfunction.
Yet, some of my GREATEST moments, some of my BIGGEST accomplishments, and many of my HAPPIEST times have come from stepping outside of my comfort zone, outside my box and into the unknown…..from taking the leap.
As a child of abuse my comfort zone was chaos. And dealing with that chaos and the emotional upheaval it created in me with food was my comfort zone. Until I stepped outside that box, allowing myself to feel, face and deal with the abuse, the emotions and the forgiveness, I could not change nor heal. Stepping outside my comfort zone during my weight loss journey with Weight Watchers and learning that there are other ways to deal with those emotions and the pain of my childhood, allowed me to find myself and my self worth.
It is so much easier for me to go back to the comfort, to go back to old habits, to do the things that I perceive protect me and offer me a safety net…..even when that comfort zone is dysfunctional and doesn’t work. Yes, that is the known and it is easier. Living in my comfort zone is safe…….And getting outside that comfort zone is a scary world, there is so much that is unknown and it leaves me vulnerable and exposed, a place I don’t like to be. But change is necessary in order to make progress and stepping outside that box is necessary to REALLY live and experience all that this crazy life has to offer.
For me, change didn’t happen until I tried something different, until I truly stepped outside my comfort zone and then life really expanded for me…..habits changed, my willingness to try new things grew, and my life became more than I had dreamed it could be.
If I had not stepped outside my comfort zone—
–I never would have left home before I was out of high school, a change that got me out of the chaos and onto a path that has led me to this place in my life now, with my best friend beside me.
–I never would have met my siblings, or forced my way into meeting my birth father.
–I never would have become a Leader for Weight Watchers….the thought of speaking in front of others was terrifying…..still is…..yet I am so very thankful I took that leap…the rewards have been priceless.
–I never would have gotten on a helicopter, with the doors off…….an adventure that was exhilarating and frightening…..and an experience I would have regretted missing.
–I never would have gotten involved as a military spouse to help others, to take care of others and to mentor younger spouses. As a shy person who has a hard time meeting new people, my time as a military spouse was often terrifying…..new places, new people, new life…….But had I not gone to all those places with my husband and had I not gotten involved, I would have missed out on those opportunities to help and mentor and I would have missed out on meeting and getting to know the many wonderful, brave and caring people I met through our military life. And my life would never have been enriched from those relationships and shared experiences.
–I never would have started this blog. Instead I would have just talked about it and wrote in my journal for only me to see. The vulnerability is real and the reward from sharing my world through this medium, has been uplifting for me and my spirit.
–I never would have signed up to do a half-marathon…..the results of that decision are still to be determined…..I am going to try my best and embrace the sweaty exercise along the way.
–I never would have taken the recent step that has taken me outside my comfort zone, yet taking that leap has made me feel very proud, no matter how it turns out. I tried.
And the list could go on…..
I am learning in my older years that life really does begin outside my comfort zone.
Stepping outside my box has allowed me to grow as a human, as a mother, as a wife and as a survivor. It is not easy and it scares me to the very core, leaving me exposed and quite vulnerable. It may not always go the way I envision when I get out of my comfort zone, but it is now and has always been, WORTH IT, because I TRIED.
This quote was perfect for me today.
As I deal with my emotions of these past few months and as I face unknowns while walking a different path than I had planned, I will embrace the changes that come and the opportunities to try something new.
And I will continue to look for new ways to step outside my comfort zone, to take that leap and LIVE.