I went to a Weight Watchers meeting yesterday morning and the topic was about knowing the difference between internal and external hunger. And how planning to eat at regular times can help us to combat that external hunger, the hunger cued by environment, our senses and our emotions. Keeping from getting too physically hungry can help us to not give in to the external hunger….sometimes.
So, after my meeting I planned my day and made sure I had healthy food to eat. I had been sick for the past week and a half, only able to eat plain toast, saltines and bananas. Now I was able to finally add back in some real food, careful in my choices.
Until…… this happened.
Cue the external hunger! Big time!
I was reading a local paper when I happened upon the ad for this newly opened cookie business, just up the road from us…..I shared it with my husband and after checking the website we ordered. Why wouldn’t we? They were offering free delivery and the cookies would be warm when delivered.
This was a perfect example of external hunger taking over!
Was I truly hungry? NO!
I had already eaten dinner, just 45 minutes prior. It was getting late and I hate to go to bed after eating… but Wow! These cookies looked amazing! Especially the smores cookie. And did I mention, they would be delivered warm!!
It was late, so I told my husband I would save the cookie for tomorrow.
But….external hunger doesn’t let go and give up that easily!
And when the cookies arrived and I smelled them….well, I just HAD to have one.
So, I did. I ate the entire huge smores cookie. OMG! It was amazing! Delicious! Heaven!
Darn that external hunger!
Before my journey with Weight Watchers, I would have given up, the guilt weighing me down. Not so kind words would have run through my head and I would have eaten more.
But I have learned many things on my journey, with one of the most important being to be kind to myself.
I ate a cookie, albeit a GIANT cookie. A gooey, decadent cookie! And I am sure it was more than my daily points budget. Heck it may have even been more than the weekly extra points budget I have.
But it is okay!
I have tracked this week. I have had extra points each day. I have not used any of my weekly overdraft points budget. I CAN fit this into my plan, my life and it works!
One splurge does not negate all the positive strides this week.
So, I ate a cookie! It is not the end of the world. It does not mean I failed. The great thing about Weight Watchers and this lifestyle I live is that I CAN have what I CHOOSE. That is so empowering! I get to CHOOSE what I spend that budget on. I get to CHOOSE what I eat. I. Get. To. Choose.
Yes, sometimes my choices are cued by external hunger rather than physical hunger. But it still works. Will I never eat a cookie? Will I never have steak? Will I never go out to eat? Will I never slip up? NO. I get to live my life, make my choices and still can become the healthiest version of me! It is about living my life. It is about avoiding deprivation. It is about eating to be healthy the way that I will eat for the rest of my life!
Yes, external hunger won out last night. So what? I did not fail.
That cookie was worth it. Every. Single. Bite!
Here is to living my life, my way. Becoming the best and healthiest version of me, one choice at a time, one step at a time, and one leap at a time!